Seizures and love
/ Epilepsy Episode 3
„I am a sponge “, you said.
,,I suck in all the feelings of the people around me. Until I am overwhelmed with feelings, that are not even mine.”
Maybe the reason you feel empty watching me
drifting away like Alice into wonderland,
is because I am empty, too.
In those moments my soul is leaving my body.
The corpse you are looking at, cramping, drooling, transforming…
…that corpse,
is empty.
How can I ask you to feel love for that body, without the presence of its soul?
I don’t.
But all I want to ask you for,
is to hold my hand. A gentle touch, that I can remember whilst forgetting everything else.
To be there,
When my soul comes back.
Slowly entering the room,
My body,
And then yours.
2022
Jana Siân Blume